i was gonna wait until i started classes but when i stepped outside last night, i got chills. i wanted to run back in for a sweater. all i could do was smile and yell "WINTER!", summer is over for me. the positive and negative, i wouldn't dare change any of it. the late night escapades, work, the worries, the people, the video games, the goofy dancing, birthdays, awful attempt at parties, the spontaneous trips to the beach, life after high school. it's not so bad, you know. these past two months have been perfect. i've been grateful for every single second that passes, making sure i don't take any of this for granted. my only complain? it went by really quick. but then again the only reason it did was because i was having so much fun.
i cleansed my mind and heart last night. i've come to the conclusion that i'm really bad at being stubborn. i also realized last night that as much as i love to go out, i find myself enjoying life more just sitting somewhere playing online checkers, swimming in pools, doodling. i never use to be a homebody, i craved the night and owning it. i get tired and sleepy when those hands approach midnight. it's funny because when other people come into lily and i's interpretation of fun, they look rather bored. :)
anyway, i'm done with this journal. it's been real, i feel new today.
_molly_jones , add it if you'd like.
and while you're at it, _doodled, too.